Lately I have been noticing lots of changes in myself. I spent the morning reflecting on that. Looking out the window thinking and letting my mind wander.
I came to realize that I am being more true myself lately. Withdrawing from that which prevents that, and moving toward that which allows me to surface.
My lifetime friend and her husband recently visited. It was wonderful to see her and connect with her in person. It is a wonderful kind of friendship that I only have a few of. She is one of the very few people I can freely be myself with. We spent time talking not so much catching up but talking about ourselves and our futures; what we are doing that brings us joy and what we should be doing more of.
I have come to realize that this visit broke the dam of being what I thought I needed to be and allowed me to move toward what I want to be. I am sort of a crazy, creative, risk taking, free-spirit, earth mama who remembers the days of being very short of money. It makes for an oxymoron sort of way of looking a life. As much as I yearn for and feel best when I am functioning on the wild child right-side of my brain, I am one who understands that you need a job for money, and money for shelter and food. So there is a piece of left brain that does indeed work and overrides the right side, because I like to eat and don’t want to be homeless. Sometimes that left side goes crazy with craving to provide that stability that I get bogged down. They can both co-exist, work and play well together in my life. I just need to help find that balance.
You spend roughly 1/3 of your day in bed, 1/3 working (likely more than that), and the rest is your time.
I can’t change the amount of time I spend in bed too much, my body likes sleep. Most of us need a certain amount of sleep for good health.
The amount of time we spend at work used to be eight hours a day and now for most folks the number is moving up as we let work creep more in to our personal lives. It is hard for all of us as we need money to pay the bills. For most of us that is jobs. Times are hard and if you have a job you feel lucky. Often time we let jobs become us, define us because we spend so much of our life at our jobs. Been there, done that and not going back. For some becoming one with the job works, Steve Jobs famous quote makes me think he found it. For most of the rest of us it is just a facet of our life. If we are lucky we like our job and co-workers. In reality though there is a certain amount of protocol that we abide to when working, because it is what is expected while we are at work. Most of our co-workers we do not socialize with in our off hours, not that they are not nice people, just not much in common besides your job. So for your workday you spend most of your time being a good worker bee, which may not have much in common with you, besides your amazing skill set that your employer utilizes.
What I can change is how I utilize my free time. Maybe free time isn’t the right word for it. It is a precious commodity and it is mine. To be used as I see fit. I don’t need to justify what I do with that time. None of us should. How many times have we been enjoying an activity when we say I should…..you fill in the blank. And if you don’t do the should what will happen?? Is there really a dire consequence of not doing the should and staying in the moment of the activity we are enjoying? If not, I challenge you to do more of what you are enjoying and do less of the should. So moving forward I am going to share more of the wild-child, earth mamma creative moments. Maybe they will inspire you to do more of what you enjoy but have been missing.